I have had a wonderful past few months. Time with family and friends was an abundant element of my non-existent calendar; school is really good (for the most part); church is more and more uplifting and comforting each time I go.
Wednesday, my grandma came home from a trip of visiting a friend of hers that used to be in our ward, and gave me crushing news. My friend, my Young Women leader and a faithful daughter of God, Robin Davis, had passed away earlier that day.
The shock did not set in until I got to church and I was surrounded by a room full of people I loved, just devastated (not to say that my grandma wasn't devastated, but the information did not sink in until I was in that room).
I have felt -- for lack of a better word, and to use a cliche -- somewhat numb. I know my Savior and Heavenly Father have provided freedom for Robin. She was so sick and hurting (she had cystic fibrosis) and she was fighting so hard to stay alive, get the transplant she needed, and be there with her husband and family for as long as possible. I felt a little selfish being so sad and missing her so much. I felt like I had been cheated of time that I wanted to have with her, to tell her how beautiful she was and how incredibly blessed I was to know her and to have her testimony, and strength, and complete love for life, in my life. I now know, thanks to a wonderful friend (Emma), that she knows. She knows how much she has meant to the lives of so many people and how she just warmed everyone's hearts. She now knows how her special spirit made others' spirits feel so uplifted and so important. She had a tremendous testimony that was truly unique and a heart that was and continues to be incomparable to any other.
I keep trying to keep myself busy and not think about things. Please, pray for her incredible family, reader. Pray for her wonderful husband and her mother and just her entire family and her friends. She has touched so many people and I'm so glad I got to be one of them.
Wednesday, my grandma came home from a trip of visiting a friend of hers that used to be in our ward, and gave me crushing news. My friend, my Young Women leader and a faithful daughter of God, Robin Davis, had passed away earlier that day.
The shock did not set in until I got to church and I was surrounded by a room full of people I loved, just devastated (not to say that my grandma wasn't devastated, but the information did not sink in until I was in that room).
I have felt -- for lack of a better word, and to use a cliche -- somewhat numb. I know my Savior and Heavenly Father have provided freedom for Robin. She was so sick and hurting (she had cystic fibrosis) and she was fighting so hard to stay alive, get the transplant she needed, and be there with her husband and family for as long as possible. I felt a little selfish being so sad and missing her so much. I felt like I had been cheated of time that I wanted to have with her, to tell her how beautiful she was and how incredibly blessed I was to know her and to have her testimony, and strength, and complete love for life, in my life. I now know, thanks to a wonderful friend (Emma), that she knows. She knows how much she has meant to the lives of so many people and how she just warmed everyone's hearts. She now knows how her special spirit made others' spirits feel so uplifted and so important. She had a tremendous testimony that was truly unique and a heart that was and continues to be incomparable to any other.
I keep trying to keep myself busy and not think about things. Please, pray for her incredible family, reader. Pray for her wonderful husband and her mother and just her entire family and her friends. She has touched so many people and I'm so glad I got to be one of them.
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